October 29, 2020
Sydney was telling me yesterday that October has felt like her first real month back to school. She was surprised by that and I can't blame her. Until October, we really have not been out anywhere but to Bradley's Therapy appointments. So after months of just being at home, when the school year started it was still part of the months being home and certainly didn't feel like anything different and definitely nothing familiar. I think that this year, we are all looking for something familiar to help make us feel a little more in control of things. I have two kids who each have a different level of anxiety with different triggers. One is an adult according to the legal books, but still very much a kid inside her head. Still, I give her the room to work her way through her anxieties...or has often been the case, not work through them. Sydney I try to help her a little more. Or should I say, he gets a little more unsolicited help. Madison either comes to me - or her emotional explosion requires some immediate attention and we go to her.
Working things through with Sydney I pointed out that it feels more familiar because she is back to playing volleyball every week. Every year she's started school, she is usually in the middle of High School Volleyball season. School started this year and it has only been in the last few weeks during October that there has been Volleyball. By now, we should have had a month of pink jerseys for Breast Cancer awareness, and crazy socks for Down Syndrome Awareness. There should have been mid-terms, football games on Friday nights, loads of hours volunteering in the community with mom, and without...usually with both girls, but sometimes only one. We would be getting ready to order her Varsity school jacket, but waiting for volleyball season to end so that all the patches for athletics, community service, and for her academics would be ready to go on together.
But life is taking a different route and though we are used to the Road Less Traveled, this less traveled road is quite crowded as we maneuver around those that are inexperienced in taking a difficult path, trying to help them along and at the same time, ever forging our path ahead.
We still aren't in school, the kids are still working from home. Eric is still not to the Phase that sends him back to work. We are in the rhythm of Bradley's therapies.. We are actually out a little more, and that is the catalyst for Sydney's sudden feeling that she is really back in school. She has Volleyball, and now she is going to doctor appointments here in town and all the way into LA, and a couple days a week she is also going to Physical Therapy. These make for surprisingly busy days. Busy enough that though we have decided to get her jacket made now, we can't seem to find the time between her schedule and the shop's shortened available time to get her in there to choose and plan her jacket. I'm also looking into trying to get her Class ring ordered early. I hate that they wait to give them information until their Senior year, I feel like now more than ever, it is reasonable and an act of kindness to open that door for her to have something special out of a very weird and discordant year.
We aren't sure that she'll even get a Volleyball Season for High School or for Club, so right now she is working hard for a lot of potential, and a lot of maybes. Right now, Mom and Dad are simply sitting back and slightly holding our collective breaths while knowing that the odds are not in her favor. Only time will tell, so apparently the Password for this year is "Patience." My worst trait come to life!
Club Practice tonight and then waiting for the weekend to hear who makes the Final Varsity Volleyball Roster for High School and whether she will be on it or not, we feel like she will be...but, politics always rise up to play a role and unpredictable is 2020 - so.... Perfect weekend for Halloween...scary to wait! HAHA..
Happy Thursday All! Anybody else finding October is very full, and almost feels like real life or is it just our house?
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